I feel a little embarrased about this...but I've become obsessive about Luke & Noah from the daytime Soap Opera "As the World Turns". I came across a clip from their storyline a couple days ago, and have since watched all 146 clips of their storyline (they range from 3 minute clips to 10 minute clips). I finished them all in a day, staying up till early in the morning and have made several computer wallpapers..hahaha..here comes the embarrasment again..:-p
All of the Luke and Noah storyline has been posted by LukeVanFan on Youtube, as Luke & Noah's story 1-146:http://youtube.com/profile_videos?user=LukeVanFan&p=r
This guy has some back story of Luke's coming out, and other back clips: http://youtube.com/profile_videos?user=MarkDutchViewer&p=r
Some favorite videos clips...zomg I'm so cheesy:
Mon, Jul. 30th, 2007, 12:36 pm
Well I finished my last audition in Germany, and we'll call it a learning experience. We could even say it will build character..:-P Yes that is psycho babble for it was rough. I had three auditions in Germany, after a week of being sick with a cold (Jesse and I seem to get one every other week here) I flew off to Munich to audition. I woke up every morning hacking up phlegm, but had my speaking voice back by audition times every day. The first audition I had I got through my first aria and felt really good about it, held a long High C out and was quite pleased with myself. In my second piece I started to feel the effects of my cold, or something...anyway my high notes were not nearly as easy, and I had to work extra hard, but I felt I did ok considering. The Agent listening did not agree with me. I'd felt that on a couple of the high notes I'd started under pitch and had to pull up, and he pointed this out, repeatedly...even demonstrating for me what bad intonation was by banging on two consecutive notes.
The second audition I sang really well, and very happy with it. The Agent didnt feel I spoke enough German.
The third audition was the worst after traveling to another city and getting minimal sleep, snow and my cold I semi lost my voice half way through my first aria, and in my second aria had to work really hard to keep singing. The Auditioners were very polite and constructive, and told me they really like the tone or quality of my voice they called it pretty and interesting.
Anyway after this experience and some feedback I'm going to look at more Mozart when I get back, and maybe try out some new audition repertoire, continue my search for the perfect French aria, maybe look at some Rossini, and Donizetti, and put Boheme and Rigoletto on the shelf for a while.
Tue, Jan. 23rd, 2007, 05:19 pm
Well Puget Sound Opera was getting geared up to do another show this summer, and now it is finding itself without funding...possibly. So we are now putting plans on hold again.
Its such a mix of feelings for me. I was very happy with what we put out last summer, but it was supposed to be a going away party of sorts for me. Well financial restrictions kept me from going to NYC, although I did get a short audition trip in.
Jesse approached me about doing another show this summer, with a similar budget, so I thought about it and decided to do it after discussions with some of my best friends in the biz. I was excited about the show and knew who I wanted to cast in almost every part. We were planning on 3 weekends with 2 or 3 performances a weekend. Jesse also came up with a way to make PSO sustainable, producing multiple shows a year, but changes to our company's cash flow have put these plans on the side again.
It seems best to not make any permanent plans where finances are concerned, because our business is changing so often that plans we make get changed so frequently.
I like producing opera, because opera is my passion, but is singing more of a passion?..I think so. Maybe this is the universe telling me to concentrate on performing. Its still possible that we'll find a way to go ahead with it, but I'm fine with it either way.
One thing I know for sure is that my greatest passion is Jesse, and I want to be where ever he is, even if that means emigrating to another country..which seems like a likely possibility as our personal liberty in the US, and our ability to work here seems to fluctuate.
I had two really good auditions in New York. I sang really well and left the last one ready for more...bring em on! Then I called the airlines and had them bring me home early, with all my auditions done...my feet just hurt a lot and I think I tweaked a nerve in left butt cheek.
My friend Ellaina sent me this quote today when I was frustrated with a voice lesson, from Martha Graham to Agnes Demille
"There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening, that is translated
through you into action and because there is only one of you, in all time, this
expression is unique.
If you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and be lost.
The world will not have it. It is not your business to determine how good it is, nor how valuable it is, nor how it compares with other expressions.
It is your business to keep it yours, clearly and directly to keep the channel open. You do not have to believe in yourself or your work. You do have to keep open and aware, directly to the urges that motivate you. Keep the channel open. No artist is pleased. There is no satisfaction, ever, at any time. There is only a queer, divine, dissatisfaction; a blessed unrest that keeps us marching, and makes us more alive than others."